Teeth

Okay so I have always been super sensitive about my teeth ever since I got my braces off and the dentist told me I should bleach them. I tried the crest white strips, but couldn't do it because it made my teeth too sensitive. So because I was feeling kind of down a couple weeks ago I decided I would get Zoom! whitening done...so far I love the results! It took my teeth 15 shades whiter...holy cow! I didn't realize how yellow my teeth were! INSANE! So anyhow, I am still doing the after bleaching treatments and they will go even whiter...but I was messing around on my computer today and was shocked with the results so far...and thought I would post them. It's kind of gross that my teeth were that yellow! Probably from years of drinking soda?

LAGOON!!!

Last night after work I finally got to break in my season pass to Lagoon! It was a blast! haha. Ty came down from Logan to be my "date". Ree was lined up with Alex from Stac and I's work. And then of course Staci and Jared. It was so much fun! And such a great time to go because it wasn't hot, it was the perfect temp, plus the lines were short because it was the end of the day. I love Lagoon, I love acting like a 10 year old...haha. It was awesome. Hopefully there will be many more fun filled Lagoon nights to come!

Ree and Alex

Me and Ty Ty

Stac and Jared

Alex, Ree, Me and Ty

Alex Ree Me Ty

Alex Ree Stac Jared

Girls Dinner

Last night I met 2 of my best friends down in SLC for dinner at Mimi's. Jess Erin and I have been friends for 5+ years. I love these girls and don't get to seem them often enough. They are really what best friends are... :)

Me Jess and Erin

Baby Ella...she is such a babe! And such a happy baby!

Ryker, he is going to be a heart breaker...such a flirt!

Quotes of the Week

For those that believe no proof is necessary. For those that don't believe no proof is possible.

Fear cannot scare a person who is at peace with God. There is no room, opportunity, or place for fear in such a person. Remember, you must have faith

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Boating at Newton

Erica and I headed up to Newton this weekend to go boating with the Logan boys...it was such a good time. We all got a bit burned...but it was worth it :)

Justin Pro Wakesurfer....
The Crew.....huddled on one side of the boat to make the wake bigger.

TyTy -- with Kev coaching him

Pole dance anyone??

Roomies...we both have really skinny necks...haha

Kev's snake print speedo....and.....haha JK

Me....cheesing it

Me and TyTy

Little Bro's Wedding

So my little brother got married...kind of crazy! Below is a picture from the day he received his endowment. This picture is priceless to me for one reason. I lost my grandfather when I was 8, he had a heartattack. But we are blessed that he had an identical twin brother Jim. Jim is amazing and comes and supports our family so well. It has given us a chance to grow older with our grandpa :)

The parents Mike, my Mom, Whit, Jake, Tracee, Daddy

The kids: Tyanna, Kohnor, Jake, me, Tawnee

Bridesmaids with Jake

Fam: me, Kohnor, Ty, Tawn, Daddy, Tracee

Me, Whit, Jake, Kohnor

The little brothers and I...

Catching Up...

Oh my, a lot has happened. Things that I don't really want to talk about to be honest. Most of you already know, and a few don't. But to sum it up the last 3 weeks of my life have not been awesome. I have had my heart broken in ways I can't even begin to explain. I have faced challenges of anxiety I didn't even know existed, so paralyzing that I honestly didn't know if I would survive it. Every day has gotten a little easier, but the pain is still there. And I wonder if it will ever completely go away. I have been through break ups, I have lost friends, but nothing like this. I wake up in the morning waiting for the pain to be gone, the sick feeling in my stomach to leave, but it's there. The betrayal, the heartbreak, the disbelief. I know the pain will fade over time, but I don't believe it will ever completely go away. This time I think it was just a bit too deep to forget...to heal.

Realization

Last night as I watched the Bachelorette I had a realization. Jillian had it brought to her attention that one of the guys on the show may have a girlfriend back home and was on the show for the wrong reasons. She asked the man who it was to stand up and be a man, but he didn't. All the other men in the room knew who it was, but they didn't say a word. Now had this been a room full of women, they would have spilled and been pointing fingers.

Life is hard enough, why is it that we do things to intentionally hurt one another?

On a side note, I am making my blog private today. Email me your email address if you would like to be added. Sammy4041@gmail.com

Retirement...

So my boss is retiring...this makes me depressed. To say this least since Tuesday of last week I have not had one awesome day...they have all been pretty terrible to be honest it's been one thing after another. I am hoping that tomorrow will turn that all around. Tomorrow could make all the not awesome days totally worth it...or it could also suck...and that would not be awesome...

Chicago....

The first day I think we walked a good 7 miles, we headed into the city for a visit at Hancock Tower. It is free if you just head up to the bar and buy a drink to enjoy the view. (don't worry they were virgin drinks of course!)

After the tower we went down to the Lincoln Park Zoo, the animals were lame though, and most of them were sleeping. Kind of a bummer.

After the zoo we headed back to Joy's house where we found Johnny setting up their new patio furniture on the roof, Johny and Bri worked on putting it all together while I supervised. For dinner we had deep dish Chicago style pizza...mmmm and chatted the night away.

Saturday we went to a Cubbies game...and they won!!!! GO CUBS GO! Cubs 7 Dodgers 0!

Saturday night we helped the Condie's break in their new grill with steaks and corn...so delicious!

Sunday was a fun filled day of church and painting Joy and Johny's old apartment. From there we headed down to Millennium Park to see the bean...(we both forgot our cameras...lame!) And over to Grant Park to see the fountain. It was another day full of walking, but it felt good to get out and stretch our muscles. We had dinner and Joy's Noodles which was Delicious.

Monday we went to brunch at Bongo of course....Mmmm. Favorite meal of the whole trip...they NEVER disappoint. Then it was back home :( I hate coming back home.

Graduation

Oh my gosh, my little sister Tawnee graduated. Kind of strange, she is the baby of the family. It kind of makes me sad actually. But at the same time I am so excited for her. She is so stinking smart, and was awarded a academic scholarship. She is a beauty too! Anyhow, here are a couple of pictures from the evening. The sisters, Me, Tawnee and Tyanna

Me, Ty, Tawnee, steph mom Tracee, Daddy

Me Ty, Tawnee, Tracee, Gma Loosle

The Graduate, Tawn Tawn

Daddy, Tawn, Tracee

Memorial Weekend

This weekend was a good time :) I went up to Boise and sent the weekend with Brian. Between, seeing movies (Angels and Demons and Star Trek) dinners, BBQ, games with friends, yard work, golf, pool time and cruising around in his new car (see below) it was a non stop weekend. But I had a blast! I was bad yet again at taking pictures...but I got a few golfing. Even a few of Vern the squirrel that lives at the golf course...and yes I fed him. haha.

This Weekend....

Brian fell in love with her......

Is it pathetic to be jealous of a car?

Better....

Today is much better for now....Mike Jordan brought in Chocolate Cake....heaven!

Really?

This week will never end.

I may die sitting in my chair at work.

Time is NOT moving...every minute is basically an hour.

I bet the days get even slower the closer it gets to Thursday.

Maybe I could take a nap under my desk?

Music should help...hopefully.

Suggestions for a girl that really is going insane....

Work is overrated.

Moment

Okay I was just having a moment...no worries not going private. I guess if people find my life that interesting I should indulge them :) haha. Kidding. Mainly I am just lazy. Plus I think the personal blog has helped a bit. Anyhow.

So tonight I am going to have a roommate night! How fun is that? We are going to shop, eat food and watch movies! I am excited! Granted yes I would love love love to be in Boise, but this is going to be a blast as well! And next week...I get to go up from Thursday to Monday, then 2.7 days home and it is off to Chicago Thursday till Monday again!!! We are going to have such a blast! So excited! You would think after all my trips out there it would get less exciting...not so much! And this time I am extra excited because I get to take my favorite boy in the whole wide world with me!

Favorite Boy

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BFF

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Freaking happy Sammy!

Seriously

I have some of the best friends in the world. One of my BFF's Mindy is such a freaking sweetheart! I was so tired this morning due to my new found insomnia (developed over the last 6 months or so) so Mindy being awesome went and got me Diet Redbull and breakfast! So when I got to work it was sitting on my desk. She is such a lifesaver! I think I will keep her :)

Why is it....

Why is it I torture myself? I do so well....so so so so well....and then I ruin all my hard work. I had finally gotten myself back on diet soda...then what do I do, I get a regular...and it is all down hill from there. One regular becomes a weeks worth...and before I know it, I am hooked again. So today I am back on diet. I hate starting diet soda. It has that weird after taste. Once you are on it, you can't tell the difference. But its just that first couple of days...Please slap my hands if you see me with a regular in my hands again. I don't want to have to go through this all over again!

Everytime I leave it gets a little harder....

I've had thoughts...

Call them bad thoughts if you may, but none the less thoughts of going private...yes I hate it when other people go private...but I don't know how I feel about people I don't know reading and knowing all the details of my life. Not that I am very interesting...but still. What do you think? Comment or take my poll...I need suggestions.