Boating at Newton

Erica and I headed up to Newton this weekend to go boating with the Logan boys...it was such a good time. We all got a bit burned...but it was worth it :)

Justin Pro Wakesurfer....
The Crew.....huddled on one side of the boat to make the wake bigger.

TyTy -- with Kev coaching him

Pole dance anyone??

Roomies...we both have really skinny necks...haha

Kev's snake print speedo....and.....haha JK

Me....cheesing it

Me and TyTy

Little Bro's Wedding

So my little brother got married...kind of crazy! Below is a picture from the day he received his endowment. This picture is priceless to me for one reason. I lost my grandfather when I was 8, he had a heartattack. But we are blessed that he had an identical twin brother Jim. Jim is amazing and comes and supports our family so well. It has given us a chance to grow older with our grandpa :)

The parents Mike, my Mom, Whit, Jake, Tracee, Daddy

The kids: Tyanna, Kohnor, Jake, me, Tawnee

Bridesmaids with Jake

Fam: me, Kohnor, Ty, Tawn, Daddy, Tracee

Me, Whit, Jake, Kohnor

The little brothers and I...

Catching Up...

Oh my, a lot has happened. Things that I don't really want to talk about to be honest. Most of you already know, and a few don't. But to sum it up the last 3 weeks of my life have not been awesome. I have had my heart broken in ways I can't even begin to explain. I have faced challenges of anxiety I didn't even know existed, so paralyzing that I honestly didn't know if I would survive it. Every day has gotten a little easier, but the pain is still there. And I wonder if it will ever completely go away. I have been through break ups, I have lost friends, but nothing like this. I wake up in the morning waiting for the pain to be gone, the sick feeling in my stomach to leave, but it's there. The betrayal, the heartbreak, the disbelief. I know the pain will fade over time, but I don't believe it will ever completely go away. This time I think it was just a bit too deep to forget...to heal.

Realization

Last night as I watched the Bachelorette I had a realization. Jillian had it brought to her attention that one of the guys on the show may have a girlfriend back home and was on the show for the wrong reasons. She asked the man who it was to stand up and be a man, but he didn't. All the other men in the room knew who it was, but they didn't say a word. Now had this been a room full of women, they would have spilled and been pointing fingers.

Life is hard enough, why is it that we do things to intentionally hurt one another?

On a side note, I am making my blog private today. Email me your email address if you would like to be added. Sammy4041@gmail.com

Retirement...

So my boss is retiring...this makes me depressed. To say this least since Tuesday of last week I have not had one awesome day...they have all been pretty terrible to be honest it's been one thing after another. I am hoping that tomorrow will turn that all around. Tomorrow could make all the not awesome days totally worth it...or it could also suck...and that would not be awesome...

Chicago....

The first day I think we walked a good 7 miles, we headed into the city for a visit at Hancock Tower. It is free if you just head up to the bar and buy a drink to enjoy the view. (don't worry they were virgin drinks of course!)

After the tower we went down to the Lincoln Park Zoo, the animals were lame though, and most of them were sleeping. Kind of a bummer.

After the zoo we headed back to Joy's house where we found Johnny setting up their new patio furniture on the roof, Johny and Bri worked on putting it all together while I supervised. For dinner we had deep dish Chicago style pizza...mmmm and chatted the night away.

Saturday we went to a Cubbies game...and they won!!!! GO CUBS GO! Cubs 7 Dodgers 0!

Saturday night we helped the Condie's break in their new grill with steaks and corn...so delicious!

Sunday was a fun filled day of church and painting Joy and Johny's old apartment. From there we headed down to Millennium Park to see the bean...(we both forgot our cameras...lame!) And over to Grant Park to see the fountain. It was another day full of walking, but it felt good to get out and stretch our muscles. We had dinner and Joy's Noodles which was Delicious.

Monday we went to brunch at Bongo of course....Mmmm. Favorite meal of the whole trip...they NEVER disappoint. Then it was back home :( I hate coming back home.